High expectation

The sweet and bitter memory of fireworks, I couldn't just close my eyes and wish the memory would turn into bubbles and disappear.

Somebody said, "Do you wanna know how to not be hurt? Then don't expect anything from anyone and don't listen to their story. Close your heart and you will live happily."
That's true, give more and expect less. But sometimes, that's just only a theory. We do expect more anyway, right? How could you don't have any expectations?

I realized fully that some things do not work the way we want it to be.
Even though I know it, sometimes I wanna dream, like a fairytale, wishing upon a star, to make a miracle happen. Like yesterday night, I dreamt you, the feeling is so real, yet I'm full of anxiety. When I was awaked, what's left is only an imagination.

At times I wonder, what's the deal? Is that so hard to have things you want? But yeah, don't put your expectation too high because in the end what we get is only a heartache.

Learning how to ride a bike is difficult when you start learning it, but slowly, you would get used to it.
Likewise, letting go is hard but you can slowly learn how to do it. Don't expect too much things from someone. U gotta learn how to do that, right?


Cheers.

Welcoming 2014 and Goodbye 2013!

It's been really a long time, more than a year and almost 1,5 year, I have never write anything. Posting something online, doesn't really make me feel good about it. But, since my wretch was terminated last September, I guess I would start writing the 2014's story here.

Thinking back, what have you achieved in 2013? #newyear
2013 is not really a specially good year, but it is indeed a better year. Maybe I could say, the year I would never forget.

There were ups and downs. There were hard times when I faced so many difficultues - feeling like giving up; feeling like I had no more strength to carry on. Gone through depression, frustration, disappointment, even the early-20s crisis and whatsoever stages of adult life.

But there were a lot of amazing things happened also. It is indeed the first year when one of my dreams came true. I survived from the workforce, enterting and adapting with the adult-life is kinda weird yet amazing. I received my first salary with my official job and joined the stock market. Besides, I had a chance to go the most beautiful island with its amazing nature with my family. It was indeed a really good time together. One more thing I have achieved this year is that, I like my job even better. I got to meet so many amazing friends at work.

I have learnt a lot for this one year:

1. The most important things in life is to never give up.

Don't give up on someone; don't give up on things. Even when you face with rejection; even when what you received is just cold shoulder, ignorance, indifference; even when you feel exhausted; tired of moving on, NEVER GIVE UP.

I still remembered how I went through the deadline, work had been super hectic. Though in the end, we successfully closed the deal, the performance results was just over target. Rejection and disappointment, for sure many people have felt that way. But then, when one door closes; many other doors will open. Perseverance is the key. I feel blessed that I got even bigger responsibility right now to bear. That's true, you have to endure it, hard work does paid off, of course not in the instant way. There should be a reason for a promotion and recognition. One thing, I am still not too sure whether this rule applies to relationship. It doesn't always work as the rules stated. Sometimes you have to understand, feelings can't be forced. The more you force it to happen, the more you got hurt later on.


2. Never give up on your dreams. When you have no dreams, then there is no hope. Keep dreaming big. You never know what will happen tomorrow. #dreamchaser

Hello 2014!! Years and still counting.

3. Friends come and go. Distance doesn't even matter when they are close to your hearts. Having some close friends around is the best feeling ever. I had a small reunion and I felt things have changed a lot, specially on me. I now dare to start the conversation first; dare to speak what I think and feel. Keep making friends, you never know, maybe you will realize your friends might be your soulmate (lol).
4. Family stays together. I just can't thanks my parents and my awesome siblings enough for accompanying me through the ups and downs.
5. The bitter and sweet memory of fireworks; the treat I would never taste; the courage perhaps never happen again; the sweetest smile I ever got; and the world of fantasy I've always imagined. Things that have happened will always be a memory.

6. Being bold isn't a crime and I am proud of being the one.

7. What it's meant to happen, it will naturally happen. Don't feel sad for yourself when you are single. I understand the feelings when you see your friends going in relationships or getting married, building a family and sweet home. Well, I gotta say this, everyone meets that "someone" at different times. I think it's better to stay single rather than being in a relationship for the sake of having one.

Ritual panjat genteng. Bitter and sweet memory of fireworks

I haven't thought clearly what I wanna do in 2014. But some ideas keep appearing on my mind;

• Healthy, happiness and success always be with my family and the loved ones. 
• Going through the peak season once more, with the good spirit. I like my job right now even more, I like how I can discuss everything that bothers me to my manager and I like how I have the responsibility to bear. That's challenging. 
• Got promoted this year, for sure. 
• I hope and I wish, I could meet that "somebody" this year.
• Keep improving myself; in terms of knowledge and personality.
• Korea or Canada would be my dream to go this year
• A year older, I should be wiser.

There are of course many things to do, it's just I haven't thought so much about it. 

I will add it here after a good thinking. 

Once again, welcome 2014, let's start the year with a smile! :)