Xiamen Winter Camp 2008

It was around November to December 2008 when I decided to join Winter Camp in Xia Men, China for three weeks. I only need to pay for the flight ticket and all accommodation will be bore by them. So, during the flight, I met up with three girls who happened to be on the same room with me. Their name starts with, N, E, and K. N & E turned out to be my junior at SMAK 7 BPK Penabur. Well, maybe this trip is to run away from reality for a while. At this time, there is no whatsapp and suchs, only messages and phone call. So don't expect things to work like now. 

There are also few friends from Jakarta. One of them I met is A & J and I don't know their name as it was 9 years ago. There was no drama at first till it all started with a simple question, "Who is that girl?" as that was what Mr. A asked to N, my room mate. And it happened the girls on my room were excited to know whether he had some interest on me. K happened to be curious much and asked Mr. A whether he likes me. He said no at first but then took back what he said as "Maybe" which for K, it seems as a "Yes". I said no, because I don't have such feelings for him... 

Few days later, I remember N sat beside me and asked me whether I really like that ITB's guy.Of course yes, I like him at that time since he's my senior in high school and he inspires me much. It's been 10 years I knew that ITB's guy and we still keep in contact sometimes.

But things progressed in such a very speed direction till I question whether Mr. A really has feelings for me or what, because he tends to be closed to each and every girls, which made a big misunderstanding between us. We all cried that night to clarify all the suspections and I love it when things had calmed down. 

However, after few days, things going on different direction as K started to make things worst. She seems to be after every guy. I met with this guy, named Mr. B, which was very charming I would say on Christmas Eve. He suddenly asked for my number which I don't have China's number at that time and I would give Natali's number to him. He suddenly messaged Natali, a very long page, 7 pages. He said he's interested on me which sounds very weird as we only knew each other for only 2 hours. He said he likes me and finds me very attractive. Well, you think you are?

But as I am still unstable in emotional intelligence and it was my first experience with such direct confession like that, my heart was moved at that time. I thought, maybe I should answer his confession in a good way. I told him, I am interested as well, but I am not sure as we just know each other only for 2 hours. We should just let it flow and see where things bring us - which sounds like a rejection for him. But we still hang out together. He held my hands as we crossed the street. Seems like a pro right, for only 15 years old guy? Crazily, why I didn't say anything. 

But as the misunderstanding deepens, K happened to like Mr.B as well. Mr. B thought he likes K too and the feelings for me was like a Christmas Eve effect. I cried that night because I don't understand why things happened twice. So many conflicts and I just don't like it. I told Mr.A about it and was forced to not letting anythings bother me again. Just focus on the camp and be happy. It turns out K & Mr.B's relationship doesn't even last for long as K moved to another guy named, Mr. P. So funny right, like a drama. 

That night when we all had to go back to Jakarta, Mr. B came to my room and we talked. I explained to him what I really mean on my answer to his confession. We all took pictures and suddenly, when I said bye in front on my room, he turned back and asked me whether I had time. He suddenly pretended there's something behind my back and while I was looking away, he hugged me tightly. He then told me, "I am not a good guy, you should meet someone better than me." and that's where he is the first person who stole that hug. Damn it. 

But overall, I love the trip and the experience. Lesson to learn: never give your love easily to someone! Appreciate your life and bring out the best in you as others would be attracted to your positive energy.