Thursday, July 14, 2016

Uncontrollably Fond - Episode 3 Summary

Episode 3 starts with a mellow song in which Eul faints and JY runs to her, calling for her name and hugs her warmly. With his worried face, he seems not being able to bear with the pain of losing her again. I dunno why but isn't it too fast now? Or is it a remind or what? But whatever, I now see how much she actually means for the current JY yeay ^.^



Now it's more like it. I did enjoy the first week of Uncontrollably Fond but with these 2 episodes, it is more likely that I will root all my time for this! Today reveals more story of the complicated past between Joon Young and Noh Eul. It's not a whole picture of what happens till JY is so obsessed to meet Noh Eul in the current time, but at least we can get a glimpse of what's actually has happened between both of our main leads. 


When Eul wakes up some time later, she’s in a hospital bed with an IV in her arm, and standing by her bedside is JY’s manager hyung Gook Young (GY). Eul wonders why she’s here, but GY is equally clueless, saying merely that JY called him and ordered him to run over or be fired. She asks where JY is...but he issomewhere in the club, attending a birthday party which he will never attend and sang a birthday song for his colleague (named Yuna) who takes him as someone's special. As JY recalls the encounter with Eul many years ago, his thought fixated on Noh Eul being fainted on the road, which makes him suddenly slams his hand down the piano and without even a word, he walks out the club. Yuna follows him out and he apologizes for the sudden departure, but when she says she’ll go with him, he shakes off her arm and asks pointedly if he’s ever given her cause to misunderstand. He reminds her that they’re merely agency colleagues: “Not more, not less.” Yuna asks why he came to her party, then. JY replies, “Because of some girl. I thought if I came here, I wouldn’t think of her. But I thought wrong.”



GY gives Eul an envelope with money in it, to ensure that this girl won't sue JY for making her fainted. Eul then insists on a ride from GY to home. As soon as they pull into Eul’s neighborhood, she spots a van parked in front, and the two loan sharks loading her belongings into it. She jumps in and hands them the envelope of cash GY gave her, claiming the computer for her little brother Jik. But the loan sharks inform her that they’ve claimed her apartment deposit, too—which means now she and Jik are homeless. Not that they care about that, saying coldly that she shouldn’t borrow money she can’t afford.


From a distance, Gook-young watches with concern, but when the loan sharks ask aggressively if he knows Eul, he says he just met her today and quickly excuses himself. (Now then I get why Eul is obsessed with money over anything and being called shameless, because life indeed is hard for her that moment and she needs money to get over with the loan shark. Seeing how pitiful she is, I couldn't bear myself not being in her side for a moment.)



After leaving the club, JY comes to his Mom's house and his Mom kicks him out, asking GY to pick him up. GY picks him and asks why JY goes there even knowing that he will be kick out. JY says because he needs to occupies himself with something important and his mom is the one he concerns with. 


Meanwhile on the road, GY keeps telling how pitiful Eul's life is and how mean for JY to decline the documentary. GY asks JY to accept the offer and saves Eul's life at least, or else she might want to die by jumping from the Han Gang Bridge. But JY is so annoyed by GY's nagging and asks him to leave the car. JY takes the ride but he keeps thinking about what if Noh Eul really gonna die and finally he searches around the bridge to find whether there is woman there. At first he finds someone and comes out from his car, calling for Noh Eul who turns out to be one of his fans. That itself makes JY runs for his life (LMAO). Finally, after admitting how crazy he might be for believing GY's word, he meets with Eul who is staring widely near the bridge. His face hardens as he drives past her.



Eul takes out her phone to call “My Number 1 Treasure,” who turns out to be her little brother Jik. She clears the tears from her voice and checks that he’s eaten, nagging at him for ignoring her instructions to eat properly. She switches to video for confirmation that he’s really eating meat—and the face of her (previously disapproving) ajusshi-friend, Ji Tae, pops up to assure her that he is.



Jik reminds his noona that hyung hardly has money to be buying him meat, and Ji Tae insists he can afford it. (I think, he’s hiding his wealthy family background, considering his father is the famous prosecutor-turned-assemblyman). But Jik seems to feel the shame that his sister has long forsaken in the name of scraping together a living, not liking it when she presses Ji Tae to buy him lots of food. Jik protests that he isn’t a beggar, and that they ought to preserve a minimum amount of pride and shame. “Aren’t you even embarrassed?” Jik asks her, and hangs up.



With a sigh, Eul returns to the bridge railing, climbing up on the foothold, peering way over the side. A hand jerks her back, and suddenly we flash back to years before, in a similar moment, when Younger Eul had been whirled around by Younger JY. It’s 2011, and Eul flinches guiltily. A look at the nearby poster explains why, as JY reads the graffiti she’d scrawled on then-Prosecutor Choi’s face, calling him a hypocrite and a despicable devil, vowing to reveal his true face beneath the dirty mask. While he’s busy looking at the poster, Eul quietly sneaks away, only to trip and fall. JY offers a hand that goes ignored, then asks if she’s eaten yet. Over noodles at a pojangmacha, JY muses that it’s been four years since they’ve last seen each other, and explains how he went to law school and just recently passed the exam. That comes as a surprise for Eul, and he contributes his success at his studies to her not seducing him when he’d challenged her to, leaving him with nothing to do other than study.


Eul lets JY speaks as she feels so awkward and uncomfortable, she sneaks out from the tend saying to JY that she is going to toilet as an excuse. But JY realizes that the way she goes is not to the toilet. JY claims Eul as a criminal for ruining the posters of another party and claims for her ID card. Eul calls the police, saying that someone takes her ID without any reasons but then JY points out that the way Eul has done is a criminal thing which can make her go to jail. Then Eul says, "Then what do you want me to do?" JY replies to her, "I'll forget all your crime, so let's date." And minutes later she’s walking to the police station anyway, ha. But she’s reluctant to actually give herself up, and reconfirms that Joon-young only meant for her to act like his girlfriend for a week to get rid of the girls chasing him around.



JY helps Na Ri (Eul's best friend) by pretending to be Na Ri's ex to get the guy who dumps her to realize the fact. But actually, JY is there to pump Na Ri for information about Eul, and hears that she didn’t go to university, that she takes any job that’ll make money, and that she’s got her hands full raising her brother and making a living. Nari asks if he means to pester Eul and make trouble like he did in high school, and urges him to leave her alone—Eul has a hard enough life as it is.

Sometime later, JY comes by a campaign rally being held for Prosecutor Choi. There is Ji Tae also and Ha Ru who is actually Prosecutor Choi's son and daughter. There is a flashback that Ji Tae and Ha Ru had met with JY a long time ago without them realizing that JY is their father's son too. Ji Tae and Ha Ru then joined by Yoon Jung Eun (played by Lim Ju Eun) who is the girl who is involved in Eul's father hit-and-run accident. There is also a flashback in which they go back to the day of hit-and-run. When Jung Eun's father, Assembly Yoon calls Prosecutor Choi over to get her out of mess. Prosecutor Choi argues that the victim’s daughter recalls the car clearly and that there were three witnesses, but Assemblyman Yoon makes a veiled threat, reminding the prosecutor that he wouldn’t be where he is without him. He’s calling in the favor now.


Ji-tae overhears the entire thing from outside the door, his hands shaking in shock. It prompts him to drop by the courthouse later to watch Eul carrying out a one-woman protest, insisting that Prosecutor Choi reinvestigate the case properly. He watches his father walk by without giving her a second glance, and Eul deflates, but only momentarily; she’s not about to quit. This is why in 2011, Eul is now an active volunteers outside a subway entrance.


JY then calls Eul to the cafetaria to help him to get rid of the girl who keeps chasing him. Eul pretends to be his girlfriend by acting so cute and finally be able to get rid of the girl. She stares at her bravely, "Hey you, don't try to flirt with my boyfriend anymore, or you will get this!" while throwing a punch. JY comes to her at the rooftop and smiles to her, saying she has done a good job. Eul is regretting her behavior earlier but then JY just puts his head on her lap, offering to shave two fake-girlfriend appearances off her remaining balances. Then Eul lets him sleep for 10 minutes. When he doesn’t stir, she gets a gleam in her eye and reaches for a pen, drawing whiskers and a cat nose on his face.





When he gets up, she takes one look at him and bursts into laughter, to his confusion. Her peals of laughter go on and on and on… and then suddenly turn watery as they morph into tears. It surprises him, and he voiceovers that it makes him want to call Nari to tell her he can’t keep that promise: “I’m going to keep playing jokes on Eul, and tease her, and torment her. I have to at least do that because I have to keep seeing her. I’m sorry.”

Later Prosecutor Choi comes to JY's Mom Restaurant and it makes JY to help his Mom out of the situation. He then tells him Mom that he is going to be a prosecutor and lets her to boast to Prosecutor Choi that even without Prosecutor's Choi ability, JY can still grow up very well and becomes a prosecutor like him. 


With much determination, Eul calls the number on Prosecutor Choi’s campaign flyer, which he answers himself. Eul introduces herself and reminds him of the hit-and-run from five years ago. He says he doesn’t remember, so she rattles off dates in quick succession—nights he’d visited Madam Song at the room salon. He stiffens, while his wife looks on curiously from the next seat. Eul calls him out on his devoted husband image and demands that he drop out of the race, saying that the country has no hope if evil people like him become assemblymen. She tells him to ask for forgiveness and acknowledge his crime, in which case she’ll stop now. Around the corner, JY listens in shock as Eul continues, telling the prosecutor that she’ll burn her evidence if he reveals the true culprit. Prosecutor Choi tells her to go ahead, saying simply that threats don’t work on him. He shrugs it off with his wife, saying it’s probably a last-ditch effort by his opponent’s camp.


JY sees Eul tuck the flash drive with the video evidence into her backpack, his face stricken when she makes a call to the broadcast station. Eul heads out, breathing deeply for courage. JY notices a deliveryman getting off his scooter nearby… and as Eul holds out an arm to hail a taxi, that scooter comes zooming by, the rider’s arm snatching the backpack as he passes.



Eul sprints madly after the thief, running into the street—right into the path of a car, which slams into her. Her body flies into the air and lands with a thud on the concrete. Eul then is rushed to the hospital where Nari tries to comfort a young Jik, who wails that his sister can’t die. JY sits numbly in the hospital hallway, in utter shock.



He recalls how his mother once took him to church as a child, armed with over a hundred prayers to make to God. She’d told him to pray for his wishes too, but he’d refused, skeptical of God’s existence. Now as he sits outside the operating room, Joon-young picks at his finger until it’s bloody and apologizes for not believing in God before: “I will believe in your existence. So please, save Eul. If only you save Eul, I will give up all the happiness.”


Eul goes into cardiac arrest in the OR, and he continues, “If only you save Eul, I will willingly give up the remainder of my life. Kill me, and save Eul.” In the end, Eul is saved from the critical point and with teary eyes, JY is now left with the choices that God has saved Eul and it's JY's turn to do what he has promised. On the other side, Ji Tae who is in the hospital also see what's been happening and ensure that Eul is saved.



Back in the present time, JY grabs Eul's hand, yells to her, "Is life a joke to you? Is dying so easy? Let's shoot the documentary. We can shoot it, all right, crazy?!"

Personal thoughts:

I really really like this episode, all of my complicated and mixed feeling about this story suddenly disappear with this very well flashback story which reveals so much information about the present day of Joon Young and Eul.

We get to know why JY who is determined to be a prosecutor before is now becomes a famous actor and singer and get to know why Eul is so shameless, asking JY to do the documentary. It's because she needs to work and keep up with he life if she doesn't want to be thrown away by the loan shark. How the history behind them is really wrapped beautifully without me have to complain on which part is not good in the story line. Everything is just very good and I wish we could get what's more than we just see.


Cheers!

Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Doctors Korean Drama Enjoys Popularity - Summary Ep 1-6



I an not a big fan of Park Shin Hye. At first, I'm not planning to watch Doctors since I know, the typical drama of Park Shin Hye would be those romantic comedy with her famous crying scene, being a kind of girl who is weak and needs protection from the cool Oppa.

Until recently, my colleagues said that I should watch Doctors because the storyline is different from the others. I did try the first episodes and I could say it's a breakthrough for Park Shin Hye in her acting career to take on such role, such character which makes me falling in love with her.



In episode 1, 2 and 3, Doctors only talk about the childhood of Yoo Hye Jung (played by Park Shin Hye), Jin Seo Woo (played by Lee Sung Kyung) and their teacher Hong Ji Hong (played by Kim Rae Won). Due to many childhood scars, Hye Jung keeps her heart closed towards other people. She is left with her father and stepmother who doesn't even bother to take care of her. With her IQ of 156, she enrols to many school but there is not even one who would want to accept her because of her attitude problems. In the end, her grandma who is almost 65 years old want to take her in to change her attitude. But she only knows that her father abandoned her and didn't want to take care of her anymore. In the first day of school, her grandma told her to go directly to school and but school uniform but Hye Jung ended up going to a night club, fought with another teenager, stole a CD in the music store and met with her future teacher, Hong Ji Hong. Although she didn't say the truth, Ji Hong knew that Hye Jung did stole the CD and asked her to politely return to the music store, apologized and admitted what she did is wrong. Unfortunately, with her martial arts technique, she dozed him off and at that point, as a popular teacher among students with may girls fangirl-ing him, he was amazed by Hye Jung's action and attracted towards her.

After going back to her grandma's home, Hye Jung met the guy who confronts her for stealing. It was Hong Ji Hong who actually rented a room in the grandma's house. He is a teacher and unexpectedly, he is the homeroom teacher of Hye Jung who finally said yes for going to school after a mental beating from her grandma. Meeting Ji Hong as her tutor and mentor actually transforms Hye Jung from a hopeless child to a passionate doctors. As she watched how Ji Hong performed as a doctor, she was inspired to be a doctor and saves many lives. Ji Hong told her to not just keep dreaming but showed her true intentions by getting a good mark on the test. Hye Jung who never studied asked her classmate, Seo Woo who always get A to teach her to study for exam and it turns out Hye Jung is the one who gets A and beats Seo Woo. Seo Woo who felt she is betrayed and accused Hye Jung had an affair with her teacher, Ji Hong. Besides, Hye Jung's grandma who suffers with stomach cancer suddenly died at the operating room during the surgery which made Hye Jung to suspect the mal-practice and swears she is going to be a doctor and finds the evidence to prove it. With that unfortunate events following, Ji Hong and Hye Jung had to part ways subsequently and meet again after 13 years and now Hye Jung is a Neurosurgeon Doctor.


With such a young age being a Neurosurgeon Doctors and famous in its field is not an easy steps for Hye Jung but she is super cool and woah, I really like how she achieved her dreams and becomes a very cool and amazing woman. She is not only a doctor, but also a professional woman fighter (as she said). Epsiode 4 mostly talks about how Hye Jung meets up again with Seo Woo and Prof. Hong Ji Hong. They all work in the same hospital. Seo Woo suspects Hye Jung who is famous enough and want to join Gukil Medical Centre is to reunite with Prof. Ji Hong but eventually, she decided to come there is to uncover the truth behind her grandma's death.



In her first day, Hye Jung makes her appearance unusual from the other doctors since she decided to do a surgery which makes Prof. Jung Yoon Do (played by Yoon Kyun Sang) to throws a fit for lack of proper attitude. But then, after much discussion and debates, Dr. Jung finally seems to be interested on Hye Jung. She is strong, confident and knows what best to decide and always makes his heart flutters, (OMG so cute of him ^^)




In Episode 5 and 6, Doctors mostly talks about the cases in which make Dr. Jung to see how lovely and capable Hye Jung is. He helps Hye Jung when he visited her patient who turns out there is a scene there. Unfortunately, Hye Jung is the one who is able to turn over the situation which makes Dr. Jung very embarrassed of himself.




Many times, Dr. Jung tries to avoid Hye Jung but Hye Jung chased him and said thank you for coming there and thus allowing Hye Jung to have time to turn over the situation. But Dr. Jung is so embarrassed and expects her not to say anything anymore. Hye Jung said there is nothing to be embarrassed off because she is a professional fighter.


After everything is calmed down, Hye Jung meets up with Prof. Hong and he is relieved that nothing happens to her. Hye Jung sits with Ji Hong on a bench outside the hospital with drinks. Ji Hong asks Hye Jung if she’s going to continue living this way. She’s too competitive and should learn to enjoy the luxuries, he says. He asks how many hours she sleeps, and she responds that ten hours a week is enough. She insists that she’s used to it and says that she wouldn’t be here if she slept and worked like everyone else.


Ji Hong asks the real question: “Are you happy now?” After a pause, Hye Jung says that there’s no way she’s happy. The reason she wanted to turn over a new leaf was for Grandma, and now that she’s succeeded, Grandma is no longer with her. Ji Hong tells her to just accept it, since he can’t help her with that. Hye Jung wonders if Ji Hong keeps wanting to help her because she’s his former student, but he calls her dumb for thinking that.



He’s more straightforward with his expression and confesses that he likes her. He says that whenever he thinks of her, he remembers their last moment when she rode away on the motorcycle. He regrets not holding onto her then. Hye Jung suddenly gets up and spills the drinks all over Ji Hong. He asks if this is a rejection, and she says no; he then asks if they’re dating now, and she also says no. He asks if her instinctive response is always no, and she says no.
Hye Jung meets again with her stepmother who suffers from facial psalm who needs to have a brain surgery. Her stepmother is kinda crazy and throws a fit there, asking for a discount since Hye Jung is her daughter and asks to be change to another doctor. This matter makes Hye Jung to ask Dr. Jung to help her handle this patient. Dr. Jung refuses at first due to the professionalism but after knowing the truth, triggers by his interest on Hye Jung also, he decides to accept the offer and performs surgery.





Hye Jung comes to the Grandma's Diner who is run by her biological father. She couldn't take a step instead just seeing him for a far. With her complicated mood, she meets with Prof. Hong who is waiting for her in the rain to give her the medical records on Hye Jung grandma's surgery. In the rain, they end up with a kiss, in which Hong Ji Hong said, he is going to give something special from a man to a woman.

Personal Notes:

I really love Park Shin Hye's character here, she is bold. Although she had a rough beginnings, but she is determined to make things better for herself, even if it means playing a long game. She learnt to be independent and she has many places to grow and improve. It's rarely we see Park Shin Hye portraying this type of character.

I don't really like Kim Rae Won in A Thousand Years Promise, because he is not a typical flower handsome guy who comes from the castle and saves the princess. Yet, somehow he portrays a very warm and gentle doctor who knows how to soothe someone's feeling and give his best to love her. Although sometimes he is cheesy and straighfoward with his feelings, isn't that what we want as a viewers? It reminds me of the cheeky little Captain Yoo from Descendant of the Sun haha. We all like straightforwardness now rather than dragging the feelings and confessions.

Besides those two, there is one who attracts my interest, which is Dr. Jung Yoon Do or Yoon Kyun Sang he is super super cute with his dorky-ness. He may be a little rough around the edges, but once he gets to know someone, he is a big softy inside. He can be quick to anger but he is a rational creature and as just quick to recognise when he is wrong. I know that Yoon Kyun Sang's true personality is not someone like Dr. Jung since he is so quiet and modest on Running Man. But anyhow, I still like his acting. He can be that cute and yet he's too adorable not to be noticed.
At first I wonder who this guy is till I remember him playing in The Time We Were Not In Love with Ha Ji Won and well, in that drama, he doesn't get me a point. But seeing how he rose to become a second male lead, it motivates me to do my best too to pursue my career ^.^

Sadly, I don't think Hye Jung is going to give him a chance to enter her heart because she only has eyes for Prof. Hong. Poor Dr. Jung. Well, you can play with me nah ~


With this kind of genre and story line, Doctors enjoys much popularity with high ratings too.

Cheers ~


Saturday, July 9, 2016

Ring My Bell - Uncontrollably Fond OST Part 1 Official MV


English Translation:
Someone's calling me from somewhere. Is that you?
I'm excited, actually
Even today I pulled out my mind and stared it
Thinking you

I'm afraid you might leave if I say I like you
So I'm trying to hide my mind
But I love you so much like this

I wish ooh ooh ooh Ring My Bell
I want you ooh ooh Ring My Bell
Whenever we meet
If you hear my heart racing
Please don't say anything and
Just hug me

Show your mind
It's not awkward
Come to me gently
I'm waiting for you like this

I wish ooh ooh ooh Ring My Bell
I want you ooh ooh Ring My Bell
Whenever we meet
If you hear my heart racing
Just hug me

Whenever I close my eyes, there's always you
Standing in front of me
Please love me only my love

I wish ooh ooh ooh
Ring My Bell (I'm waiting for you)
I want you ooh ooh Ring My Bell
Whenever you want to see me
I would run to you quickly
I'm afraid you might catch my mind
So I'm just waiting

I love you

Friday, July 8, 2016

Uncontrollably Fond - Summary Episode 1 & 2



A long awaited come back for our lovely Suzy, the Nation Goddess after Gu Family Book and what triggers me is the main cast, Kim Woo Bin & Bae Suzy are the top lead in the industry and this is the first drama Woo Bin casts as the main male lead (I've watched his acting since A Gentleman's Dignity and very proud on how he could progress from the supporting actor to the main actor, I should also follow his steps! Anyway, congrats Woo Bin ^^)





This drama is pre-produces and aired on July 6th, 2016 and I have finally watched the first two episodes of it. Without taking too long, here's the summary of the episodes and my responses for the first two episodes;



Shin Joon Young (played by Kim Woo Bin) is a famous actor and he is diagnose with a disease which he could only live for another one year. He, himself also couldn't believe what his doctor has said to him. What I could guess, it's related to the brain, maybe a brain tumor or whatever it is, because he mentions he only suffers with a headache. 



Meanwhile, Noh Eul (played by Suzy) is a documentary PD and she has a huge loan to be repaid. Since she needs money, she received a bribe to repay the loan but end up being fired from her company. This leads her to meet Shin Joon Young (SJY) who rejects doing a documentary after his tantrums on his last drama. She swears to make Shin Joon Young to do a documentary which will help Noh Eul to return to her company. 


But both of them had a ill-fated relationship when they were young and end up in their separate way and meets again after so many years. SJY phoned his lawyers and asked him to find a woman for him, checks what she does for life, what situations she is in, where she lives, whether she is married of not, if she is married-who her husband is and what kind of man he is. I don't know who the girl is, since he never mentions her name but I could guess, it's Eul he's looking for desperately. 

In episodes 1, SJY comes to a Yukgaejang Restaurant and asks for 100 servings of Yukgaejang since he is sick and he wants a hearty serving meal from his mother who runs a restaurant. But his mother throws a tantrum, saying she is never going to serve any meal to him. SJY finally comes back after getting no meal at all and talks to himself, asking whether he should tell his mother that he is sick and only has a limited amount of time to live. 

SJY's mother look at a newspaper and notice a man, who is now a famous prosecutor. This famous prosecutor maybe turns out to be SJY's father although they don't state it directly but I assume this famous prosecutor is going to have a complicated relationship with SJY and Eul. Until high school, SJY only knows that his father is dead until his uncle tells him that SJY's mother may hide the pregnancy from the guy who made her pregnant, not because the guy leaves her and abandon SJY. SJY's mother is determined to make SJY to be a prosecutor because his father is a prosecutor too and later on, if SJY has become a prosecutor, she is going to introduce him to his father because she wants to show that even without SJY's father ability, she can also raise their child very well. 

However, SJY turns out to know who his father is and determined to be a prosecutor too after knowing the truth from his uncle. He studied hard, day and night and one day during 2006, Noh Eul appears in his life, asking why he rejects to meet with her, after sending 7 letters at the library. It turns out that both of them studied at the same school. He looks her over and says she’s not his type, and she shouts that he’s not her type either—she’s here because her friend is lovesick, literally in a hospital bed and not eating, wanting to die because Joon-young dumped her.


SJY says she can just die then, so Eul threatens to kill him if her friend dies because of him. He wonders if she’s getting paid for this and suddenly walks up to her and puts his hand on her forehead. Eul is startled but shakes him away, and he declares that Eul isn’t in her right mind. Later on, SJY appears in the front of the school, brings a huge teddy doll and pretend that it is a 100th day anniversary between Eul and him which shocks Eul's friend.

Eul's Dad got into an hit-and-run accident one night and after some time at the hospital, he died and left Eul and Eul's younger little brother with a huge debt to a loan shark, They have to leave and find other places to live on. SJY who just know the story later on tries hard to find Eul but he couldn't do it after one day, Eul called him on his phone, saying how much she thanked him for carrying her father's photo at the funeral. The flashback ends there. 

In the recent times, Noh Eul comes to beg SJY to do a documentary but she ends up in a road after being left by SJY. It's winter and the snow is very thick. SJY who left her comes back again to look for her. At first he is not able to find her but he ends up seeing her walking down the road alone. He runs to her and asks her whether Eul recognizes him. Eul says of course she knows, because everyone knows the famous actor Shin Joon Young. 

Eul reminisce her old days when she went to a salon and get her hair done, said she is going to confess to someone and asked the ahjumma to make her look pretty till he cannot reject her. When she was done and ready to confess her feeling to that guy, she saw him hugged another girl and it turns out that the guy is Shin Joon Young. OMG, she has feelings for him years ago but end up saying she doesn't like him and he is not her type. 

SJY asks her again whether she recognizes him and Eul says of course she remembers a scumbag like him. Eul also says please do a documentary because it will work wonders to change SJY's image of being a rude jerk. Eul lefts him but ends up fainted on her way. SJY runs to her and it narates that maybe this girl is not his Eul he's been looking for. 

My thoughts:
I dunno why but the first two episodes do not give me an exciting feeling, instead a confusing one. Maybe I expect too much because of the chemistry on the official posters between Kim Woo Bin & Suzy and expects a nice folded story line like the first two episodes of My Love From Another Star and Descendant of the Sun.



Episode 1 reveals that SJY is sick and I bet it's going to be a sad melodrama. Hopefully SJY doesn't die at the end of the drama. I wish too. The story line doesn't seem to run smoothly, I know they cut and put them into places for an episode, but the way the story goes seems a little bit off for a good start. It was like each scene to another scene left me with a confused feeling. Besides, I cannot believe it that it is illogical that somebody can enter a famous star's house so freely. Yeah maybe it's because SJY knows that the girl is the Eul he's been looking for but somehow the way they meet again later one seems a little bit weird and being forced. 

Episode 2 mostly tells us about the flashback stories when both of SJY and Eul are in high school. The pace is kinda slow for the first two episodes and I honestly think that the story up to this point is just so-so. I couldn't see the chemistry between them yet. Hopefully it will get better in the next episodes and will get even better in the future ~

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

I'm a failure

Last few months I feel like a total failure. I am depressed but no one knows, maybe.

Because I keep doing whatever I should do in everyday's life. I woke up in the morning, went to office, worked a whole day and came back to home after office hour. Cleaned myself up, watched drama and end up slept at night. I'm doing that diligently every single day without any complaints but I cut myself from the world. I seldom post anything on instagram because there is no good photos, nothing to say and there is totally nothing I am interested to. Besides, there is no DRAMAS to distract my mind. Thankfully I got distracted again by Doctors and I am certain this drama is good. Maybe if you have time, you need to watch it thou. Dramas plays an important part in my growing up and takes a huge part of my life because it helps me getting distracted from overthinking.

There are series of event which make me depressed. If you have read my recent post, maybe you might notice there are things which bother me for few days and yeah it's true.


  • Totally no order of makeup and it makes me thing I fail to do my passion and do not give my best to pursue it.
  • Lack of achievement and improvement which makes me think I fail to improve myself.
  • Fail to have a great connection with that man who suddenly stops caring and we decided to just be friend which make me feel as a failure to be a woman. 
  • Fail to control my emotional stability which makes me think that I fail to be a normal human being.
I tend to close myself at first, making every parts of my life to be private and close my heart to anyone, even to my parents and brother. I tend to be quiet and it leads me to overthink about the situation and not to improve it. 

But I realized, I couldn't be always like that and I decided to just find a source of hope. I saw my friend who post a nice line which attracts my mind, "He is the one who taught me to NEVER ever GIVE UP! Believe in your dreams , never afraid to spread the wings of your imagination widely and let your mind soar. Never settle for less than you deserve and be positive, cause there is no failure except you're no longer TRYING."

Once, Calvin Chen also said, "Never stop trying, if you fails one time, try, try, try, and try again..."
But many times I always forget those words. I looked up online and found a good article on personalexcellence.co which taught me about being a failure. 

Why do you say that you're a failure?
It's because you set very high expectations for every single little thing you do. But it’s not possible to live up to such high standards for every single little thing without a margin of error. It’s okay to be imperfect in the things we do. We are all imperfect.

After hearing that, I do not know why, but I feel relaxed and every burden in my chest seems to just lifted up. Instead of thinking and overthinking about the situation, maybe I should just improve the situation itself. Maybe you feel shitty right now and be glad that you're not alone and I wanna tell you that: 

#1 YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE
Being born in this earth after competing with millions of sperms, I guess I am pretty lucky to be a baby that was able to win the competition and at least for my parents, I am precious gift from the God and not a failure. Just remember that you are precious. 

#2 IT'S OKAY TO BE IMPERFECT
No one is ever perfect. For every high mountains, there will be a higher mountains. 
I tend to be harsh to myself for setting an unrealistic goal which in the end will disappoint myself when I didn't live to that certain standards. As a child growing up with certain fairytale stories, I used to think that every woman has a dream at least to live that perfect ending with their Princes. But reality sometimes doesn't always to that way and maybe reality is better than the story I've ever heard. 

It's perfectly fine to be imperfect because I am just a human, not a robot. Rather than being disappointed with the expectation I couldn't achive, it's better to make it as a learning point where I could learn all over again.

#3 WORK ON IMPROVING THE SITUATION
Instead of being down all over, it's better to think how to solve it. How to improve the situation. If I don't have any orders now, maybe I should advertise again and again or do something else to get people's attention. Maybe I should go over and meet with my old friends, sharing about life and telling them that I am a makeup artist now. Maybe, and maybe because of that, I got one order at least. 

For being a woman, you don't need a man to complete you, because you are complete by becoming who you are. I do not want to think about being into a relationship nowadays. I just want to enjoy my life, learn some more things and becoming the best version of myself. 

#4 STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO OTHERS
Never ever comparing yourself to someone else. It's true that the grass on the other side is always greener. Although my garden may be small, the flowers not yet blooming, the lawn just getting ready to renew itself, my grass isn't so bad. And who knows with a little bit of fertilizer and tender loving care, my grass may turn out to be on the very best side of all. 

We live in this live, not to become a copy of others but to be the very best side of ourselves. 
Once I watched the interview with Lee Jong Suk who is going to be on W:Two Worlds, he said, "I know I am more suited to do a romantic-comedy type of dramas. Instead of doing an action as I want to do, it's better to just do what I am good about." 

It's the same logic with, rather than I tried to copy what others have done with their makeup skills, it's better to just do it my own way and shines with my typical makeup signature. Everyone's success is measured differently and you can't compare an apple with an orange. So, stop comparing and just be the best of yourself. God has given use each talents and weaknesses and we should embrace it instead of complaining and copying to be the same version of others. 

#5 DON'T SUBJECT YOURSELF TO OTHER'S JUDGEMENT
It's unavoidable in makeup industry to face judgement from others. We just can't please everyone. Everyone's taste is also different and they each have their favorite type. Just because complaints and negative feedback, it doesn't mean you are a failure. 

There are stills a lot of people who is going to appreciate your talents and just surround yourself with positive people around.


#6 KNOW THINGS WILL GET BETTER
Same with nature, there is sun after the rain. Things will get better and there is hope in every steps of our lives. 

#7 STEP A LIFE
I’ve found that when we enter into a “I’m a failure” or “I hate myself” funk, it’s easy to recede into a cocoon. Not talk to anyone. Not reach out. Not work on our goals. Not get anything done. Not be in contact with humanity. And disappear into a hole.

If this is your way of recharging, go ahead and do that. It’s important to have down times to take stock. However, don’t do this for too long. You have to know, the world needs you for your talents. Besides, it's okay to cut yourself from the world but over times, it will eat us on the inside because as a human being, we couldn't live a lone life. That means we lost the human contacts, personal growth and the ability to affect worlds with our actions.

So step out a life, go out and meet with people. Open your heart and mind and you will see a totally different world which awaits you beyond your imagination. 


Cheers!


Scarlet Heart: Ryeo


Scarlet Heart: Ryeo is a remake for Bu Bu Jing Xin in Korean and will potray the Korean history in the Kingdom of Goryeo. Lee Jun Ki who is famous for sageuk drama will take the male lead role as the 4th Prince who "doesn't want to be a King but he shines brilliantly" and IU who takes another challenge in her acting career will be Zhang Xiao/Ruo Xi  who travels back to the Goryeo Dynasty.

I didn't expect anything at first but seeing IU in that poster makes me expecting the story to go beyond our imagination. I watched the Chinese version and I really like how they potrayed the helpless Ruo Xi, who wants to stay alive and yet she is trapped with the love story between herself with 4th and 8th Prince and there is no way she could go back to her world.

The Scarlet team has released the official posters for each character and here is it, and me, here, waiting for this to air on August! One more month to go ~

14th Prince

Hae Soo / Ruo Xi

8th Prince

3th Prince / Royal Prince who wants to be a King

13th Prince

9th Prince

4th Prince

10th Prince