Spoiler: Uncontrollably Fond - Shin Joon Young's CCTV messages for Eul

So actually we get some spoiler about what's going to happen next. I am not sure whether this is gonna be aired soon or some time later when Uncontrollably Fond reaches the end. However, there are news circulating about Shin Joon Young's CCTV left messages for Eul. Actually if you notice it, this has been aired when Eul is editing documentary of Shin Joon Young in which she cannot hear what he says.

It's not exact, but a fan who look at this GIF decode what he said by his lip, which he says, "I'm ill. If I die within the next 3 months, don't cry for me for too long." When I heard about this, my heart breaks and I am sure we are going through some river flowing of tears. 

I know that JY is selfish enough for tempting to Eul, making her to fall in love again to him and yet he's gonna go after 3 months. But when we see from JY's perspective, he's got only 3 months to live and yes, of course he should spend the rest of his 3 months like there's no tomorrow, fighting for his happiness and be happy. But I bet he's gonna be struggling as to what's gonna happen to Eul once he's gone and this is gonna be homework for him in the next episodes. 

Anyway, I really hope that our writer-nim gonna spare JY's life because I don't want him to die. Seriously.

W: Two World - Epsiode 5 and 6 Summary

Watched the episode 5 and 6 of W: Two World and I decided I won't do any more recaps or summary on this anymore, just gonna have a word or two about the drama and review on it. I'm sorry for not going to continue with the work, it's because until this episode I still don't get certain feelings, either it is love for the main OTP, thirlling to the story ahead or any kind of other feelings.

Episode 5 and 6 seems a little bit boring to me. The pace for episode 5 sucks for their slow progress. I think they use too many flashback,specially in every beginning of the episode and it's very boring for me. Kang Chul comes to the real world, knows about his story, meets with Oh Yeon Joo, shares a kiss with her and comes to meet Oh Seong Moo to clarify about who is the true criminal but he ends up realizing that there is no true criminal, instead it is a set-up story to make him to become a stronger hero. With that conclusion, he goes to Han Gang River to get drowned.

The story ends yet after two months, without an exact explanation on how the two worlds can co-exist in the same time while both the person from different world can get sucked in and out from just a webtoon. Then after it shows the end of the story, it suddenly changes into to be continued as if the story will still go on and what makes even more nonsense is that, Oh Yeon Joo back to the webtoon world, in her jail. WTH. Does this mean they are going to time travel back now?

I like fantasy but W seems too much for me, they don't give me an explanation about how it works, the nonsense story about the webtoon and the real world and when they put an end to it, and suddenly they bring back the life of Kang Chul. This means the nonsense story might continue with other doesn't make sense story. I cannot understand the logic behind it omg, and this is why I couldn't get the feeling. Both Lee Jong Suk and Han Hyo Joo is a good actor and actress, they got the chemistry which everyone really want to see. It just I cannot understand with the story and how they make a story like this. Besides, what we see more in just 6 episodes is much more like flirting and kissing. I don't need that kind of too much kisisng scene, just a sweet word will do and it will give a huge impact on me rather than with this kind of story line.

Well, gonna watch the other episode, but this story is too much for myself to become a fan of it.

Uncontrollably Fond - Episode 10 Summary

I cried so hard towards the end of this episode and I, myself, don't know the exact reasons for me crying. It's just I feel so sad watching my main OTP have to go through much hardship and I am sad enough to see how hard JY has to struggle against his illness. OMG, this melodrama is sure one of the dramas you have to watch if you want a good cry!

So JY, as a boyfriend material, he looks for Eul whom he heard she comes to the K-Pop Festival and he sees her with Choi Hyun Joon, his biological Dad and Haru. HJ gives Eul KRW 100,000 to compensate the loss she get because of the kitten without apologizing first and JY grabs the money and throws right in front of him, saying that instead of giving money first, he should admit the mistakes and apologize first.

HJ seems so angry that he states the fact how manneless JY is, for him to interrupt them and asks whether JY's parent taught him to have that kind of attitude. HJ then mentions to JY how disappointed he is for keeping the law book for him, yet JY has changed so much and he can't believe what kind of attitude which makes him as a famous top stars when he doesn't even have manners. HJ then leaves with Haru.

JY tells Eul not to pick up the money and just let it be but Eul takes the money and tells JY to just mind his own business. Because of that, JY leaves her to attend the ceremony awards.

JY comes back and finds out that his Mom will not come to the ceremony. With much tension, JY calls her with GY's phone and asks what he did wrong that he deserves that kind of attitude from his own Mom? He asks her too whether being success to be an artist is a sin? JY also states how she hated her for not being a prosecutor instead a Hallyu Star, how many times JY has told her that he believes a prosecutors have to tell things honestly, reveal only the truth and protect the weak one.

He again tells her, if a person like him becomes a prosecutor, the weak and poor people like his Mom won't be able to live in this world and justify himself to have no qualification to be a prosecutor.  His mom is stunned by that confession of him and left speechless. OMG, this is heartbreaking, JY T___T

No Eul heads straight to her car, unable to even get her head on straight to work. She doesn’t even pick up the phone when Joon Young calls her. At the same time, Hyun Joon sends his wife and Haru home as Eun Soo really isn’t feeling well. (I bet the stress of potentially seeing Joon Young face to face is stressful for her.) He has to stay behind to save some face with his colleagues. He totally misses seeing Young Ok walking right past in her nice outfit, leaving the festival after being rejected by her son.

Once Haru and Eun Soo leave in their car, Hyun Joon picks up a call from another assemblyman outside. Someone honks behind No Eul, and she sees an opportunity in front of her: Hyun Joon near the road, not paying attention to his surroundings. She flashes back to when her father proudly treated her to Chinese food for rising up to 59th place in class when she used to be 138th, and when No Jik outed her as white-outing the “1” from “159.” She then flashes back to the night her father was killed, and how the police said that Hyun Joon’s involvement changed the entire testimony and direction of the case.

Honestly, it was the longest flashback ever and all I could think about was the car behind her, waiting to pass.

No Eul starts driving, and slowly aims towards Hyun Joon. Joon Young sees what she’s doing as he exits the hall and pushes Hyun Joon out of the way. No Eul swerves and slams into a pillar, narrowly avoiding Joon Young. The car crashes with a terrible crunch, and she’s knocked out, bleeding in the head. (She got herself into a car accident again!)

Joon Young gets up, spraining his shoulder, but doesn’t bother to wait to hear Hyun Joon thanking him for saving his life. (Not like that prideful prosecutor would anyways…)

He carries No Eul to the hospital and screams for help, but all the nurses and doctors are rendered useless at the sight of a world-famous star. What kind of hospital is this?!

Hyun Joon wonders why No Eul would have gunned for him, as he really doesn’t remember her, but he doesn’t want to press charges. He wants it written off as just a driving misdemeanor. Eun Soo hears though, and she’s not too grateful that Joon Young saved her husband’s life. It doesn’t help that Haru just keeps singing Joon Young’s songs because she’s heartbroken over how her father scolded Joon Young. Ugh I want to kill off this character…

Ji Tae also hears of the accident and he heads to the hospital to see Joon Young, all dressed up. He introduces himself as Hyun Joon’s son and a section chief of KJ Group, and that because of his true identity he gave up on No Eul. Joon Young replies: “So what?”

He doesn’t care who Ji Tae is, or why his family should make him give up on No Eul. Joon Young heads out to visit No Eul’s room, where she’s sedated, and apologizes to her for leaving her alone after that fight with Hyun Joon and Haru.

A week passes, and No Eul’s healed better. She hasn’t told No Jik though, who thinks that she’s still working in the editing room. No Jik meets with Haru to get his kitten back, but she shamefully admits to losing it. UGH THIS WOMAN. He grabs her while she’s on the swings and she’s nearly thrown off by how close they are to kissing – and how cute he is. That’s when No Jik lets go of the swing and she falls to the ground. Yeah! Don’t like her! This irresponsible silly girl!

It turns out Joon Young wants him and No Eul to go on a month-long trip together where they can just ignore the rest of the world and hide together. And surprisingly, No Eul is actually quite receptive to the idea. She washes off the hospital grime while Joon Young packs the bags, buying her underwear, pajamas, and matching jackets for them while disguised under an oversized scar. When he arrives at her room, he’s relieved to see that she hasn’t run away, but was in the bathroom applying some makeup.

No Eul wishes that they could hide away for a year, and Joon Young is game even though he knows he won’t be alive that long. This time she asks for the kiss, and he gives her one so deeply.

They head to the parking lot where Joon Young goes to retrieve the car.

But that’s when his headache attacks and he falls, crippled momentarily and losing his vision.

At the same time, a couple of detectives come to arrest No Eul for attempted murder of Hyun Joon. It was totally because of Eun Soo – and when Ji Tae hears of it he accuses his mother of putting her in jail out of revenge. Haven’t they caused enough grief upon her family?

His mother apparently also sued her for defamation when No Eul dug up evidence of KJ Group’s slush fund (which was true), thus completely ruining her finances. Thankfully Hyun Joon overhears this argument between Ji Tae and Eun Soo when he returns home, and that’s when he finally remembers who No Eul is exactly. It remains to be seen what he’s going to do about it, but I have a funny feeling he won’t be such a good dad for long…

Joon Young meanwhile couldn’t stop No Eul from getting arrested because of his crippling disease. But he manages to get home and call up his lawyer to try and get No Eul out. The lawyer’s hands are tied though as CEO Namgoong won’t let him get involved in No Eul’s affairs anymore. On top of that, Joon Young is under lockdown in his room, not allowed to leave or see No Eul at all.

Jung Eun makes a dinner for her father, who praises her cooking skills and wishes that he wasn’t marrying her off to someone as “second-rate” as Ji Tae. She asks if her father knows what happened to the man she hit all those years ago, and Chairman Yoon says he died. “That’s a relief,” Jung Eun replies. “I heard he was in a coma. If he was in a coma all these years it would have been very hard on the family.” Such cold-hearted compassion. And she moves on to commenting about the good wine as if they were just talking about the weather.

As No Eul spends the night in a cold cell, giving her clothes to another older woman suffering beside her, she sees her father’s vision before her. He scolds her for not taking care of herself.

And guilt washes over her as she confesses to accepting Choi Hyun Joon’s money and settling out of court so that she could have the surgery to live and be with No Jik. She admits to trying to forget her father and moving on, feeling that she accepted blood money, but her ghostly father just hugs her and tries to comfort her.

Meanwhile, No Jik pleads outside of Joon Young’s door for his help. He can only think of Joon Young as someone rich and powerful enough to save his sister.

Unfortunately Joon Young can’t answer the door from his room, and his headache keeps coming and going. It gets to the point where Joon Young calls up his mother – and Jung Sik picks up. Good thing it was Jung Sik, because only his uncle will hear him out.

Jung Sik’s voice grows increasingly worried for Joon Young’s condition, which means it’s serious enough to spur Young Ok into action.

Then both of them head over to his house immediately and Young Ok caresses her son’s clammy cheek. It’s hard to describe just how relieved he seems to see his mother finally at his side. She wants to take him to the hospital immediately, but he wants to go to No Eul first. He has to see her.


Personal Thoughts:

I cried so much on this episode, thinking why it is so hard for both JY and Eul's life and I still couldn't believe the character growth on this episode is huge. We now see hateful Ji Tae's mother and the reason why Ji Tae hide his identity and helps Eul to fight with her life. My heart sank when Ji Tae said until when both of his parents going to screw up Eul's life? The good thing is that, Hyun Joon happens to hear the conversation.

I also think that both Suzy and Kim Woo Bin's acting on this episode is far way awesome. They both make me cry, for Eul's longing to her father, her conversation with her father about accepting the money to settle down because she is firmed enough to forget about what happened to her Dad, yet why it turns out to be this hard. Meanwhile Woo Bin as Shin Joon Young makes me feel sad for his illness and sickness and his acting is daebak. He is sure a true actor:D

Uncontrollably Fond - Episode 9 Summary

Episode 9 starts with Eul is walking down the street near the bridge while thinking back about what JY has done for her. Sppecially how he said to his mom that Eul is the woman whom JY has told about the other day on the phone, how he has been thinking about her for the past nine years and realized that he actually really love her. Eul also reminds back to the time when JY confessed to her on the stage and how Eul rejects him without responding, yet when Ji Tae asked JY that from this time, it's going to be real, JY said he doesn't care and just grabs Eul's hand. 

She shakes her head, still couldn't believe what has happened to her life and she remembers the time when she was still in her drunk state and JY asked her what he can do when the weird girl who turns her back towards him doesn't even cast him a glance instead wanting another guy who abandoned her. Eul then reminds herself when JY said he loves her so much and the kiss between them and finally gathers her strength and she calls JY right away. (I bet that she's waiting for Ji Tae and wants to hold onto him is just some kind of distraction because she is afraid she might fall too deep!)

On the phone, Eul says she would like to trust JY once and without any hesitation and sounds so happy, JY drives to her and wants to hear that directly from Eul. When they meet up, JY suffers with the blurry eyes due to the brain cancer and by hugging Eul, he pretends he is fine and just want to spend the time with hugging her for minutes. After he seems to be fine, he lets Eul go and Eul asks him whether they are going to stand there for the rest of the night and JY says it would be awesome to have Eul on his arm and asks Eul whether she's okay if JY asks for a kiss. Eul says he's a pervert and walks away. With his happy smile, JY says he would meet her tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the next day, the next next next next day wherever and whenever he wants. OMG I fall in love already with his cheeky and super happy smile! YEAY!

The next day is the shooting time for JY and Yoo Na. Eul is there for the documentary thing. The reporters are there asking for interview between the two stars and Yoo Na claims that she is very sorry to have them to visit them just because of the scandals. Meanwhile JY is forced to leave a comment and finally he says just because he is a celebrity, it doesn't mean that he doesn't have a right to protect his private life and the girl he really like. He ensures if the reporters will not ask about his private life and love life anymore if they still want him to be a celebrity. After that JY leaves the scene and it's left with Eul there taking the charge that JY might cover the real scandal and makes Yoo Na to be the distraction from the real truth and Eul says directly to all the reporters that JY is not her type and she has someone she likes who is much cooler than him.

Then JY and Eul meet up when JY is having a break and Eul starts with the documentary. She asks him one of the list on his bucket list. The first time, JY says it is to hear someone who asks the question to say that JY is her type. Eul doesn't believe it instead she says she will edit it out and make sure that JY would not joke anymore and asks the same qns again. This time, JY says that he really wants to hear 'I Love You' from someone who is standing right in front of him. The interview then being cancelled by Eul because she think JY might not be in his right mind.

It's the time again for JY to shoot the next scene while during the shoot, he hurts his head because the lighting falls on him accidentally and because of that he got bruises on his head and scar on his face. 

He then plans a trick with GY to scare Eul that JY is badly hurt and he's in a life-or-death situation due to the accident. Eul is very worried about JY saying she still has something to say to JY. She even cries and gets panicked when the driver who turns out to be JY stops the car in the middle way. When she realized that it's actually JY, she gets mad and trips over again. (I knew now I we have Eul_JY shipper again, Manager Oppa! Welcome to our clubs ~)

JY comes to her and while he worries about her, Eul realized how he is badly hurt. JY says his shoulder hurts and he gets some bruises too, so the plan to date with Eul before going to the hospital is now being ruined. 

Suddenly Eul kisses him and says that JY is her style and she also likes him too. She asks does what she says make him happy and starts to worry about him again. She couldn't believe when JY is badly hurt, he can still think about dating with her. What a nonsense and there JY kisses her!

and they both kiss passionately on the street! OMG YEAY!!!!

The next next day after JY is alright, he then asks GY to plays the same prank to his mother. This time is to buy her clothes for her to come to Kpop Festival because the star's Mom is gonna get awards from the Ministry of Culture & Tourism. JY also mentions that Congressman Choi will be there and it's time for his mom to feel proud of her son.

On the other hand, Ji Tae knows about his Dad's brother knows about JY's Mom carrying his son and it turns out that Ji Tae is not the biological father of Ji Tae! Ji Tae proposed to his mom to tell the truth about his ex-gf was actually carrying his son and his son is the famous Shin Joon Young. But Ji Tae's Mom doesn't want to expose this because she is afraid that her husband is gonna leave her and she finally speaks out the truth that JY is going to die in 3 months and asks Ji Tae to give her three months to tell the truth. What an evil wth, she is scary.....and yet think what if you really tell him after JY dies, your husband will surely hate you enough.

On the day of K-Pop festival, JY looks awesomely handsome OH GOD! That day is actually the day of Eul's Dad anniversary and Eul is almost forget about the ceremony. She then throws a simple ceremony for the memorial. Sadly the kitten in which Haru brings destroy the ceremony food she had prepared. Instead of apologizing, Haru gives Eul money to compensate her. When Haru's Dad come, he also did the same and JY suddenly appears and says, "Before you give her money, you should apologize to her...." and he is damn cool!

OMG now the three of them meet!!!

Personal thoughts:

I'm so pleased to be able to watch the drama on the same day it was aired. Thanks to dramacool.to who is very fast with uploading the drama with Eng Subs, thank you so much, UF really made my day. Right from the start, and with this stories, it now make senses that the one whom Eul really likes is actually Shin Joon Young. Maybe some of you might think that she is not consistent with her feelings. Let me explain it, Eul has a long time crush on JY since high school. She even went to a salon the day when she wants to confess her feelings. Sadly, she has to give up because at that time, JY's Na Ri's boyfriend. 

However, once the feeling has started, it is hard to just forget about it. It's just that you are not thinking about it too much and the real feelings will still be the same. Ji Tae on the other hand, is someone Eul cares for because he is so kind to her and Jik and treats them like a family. She never mentions that she likes Ji Tae for what he is. She desperately holds onto him is because she believes by being together with Ji Tae, neither she nor Jik will be starved to death and always promises him that she will do good to him. It implicitly tells us that she need assurance for her life from someone, not because she trully considers him as someone that special like JY. 

On the other side, she really likes JY for what he is. Even though he is a jerk, she still likes him and you see how panicked she is when Na Ri shouts that JY is dead on the first episode. Meanwhile she worries about him again when she heard JY is badly hurt. Unconsciously, she already falls for him deeply. Meanwhile, it is no wonder that Haru starts to be annoying much with her arrogance and selfishness. She is exactly the same like her mother who is very obsessed with her lover. I didn't put much summary on her because I don't really like mentioning about this girl. 

The ending is good, because it's so tense when the three of them finally meet. The cinematography is also good and even the actors, either it is Kim Woo Bin or Suzy, they both are awesome because they brings much feelings when I watch this episode. It's a sweet lovey dovey moment while I feel sad too when I remind myself of JY is going to die within 3 months. They both look so cute and complete each other, please let JY live and they deserve the happiness. 

Episode 10 would even much more interesting because Eul is going to do drive and crash the car towards JY's Dad but then it showshow much blood she suffers and yet JY is there and panicked about her life. OMG I really cannot wait to see it tonight!

Kim Woo Bin Expresses Concern for Disappointing Fans

On August 1, Kim Woo Bin posted a message on his fan cafe under the name Shin Joon Young, his character in “Uncontrollably Fond.”

Kim Woo Bin said, “I apologize for coming to you so late. In this precious time, when everyone is seeing me as Shin Joon Young, I wanted to leave a message under the title ‘This is Shin Joon Young,’ but leaving one now, as the drama passes the halfway mark, I’m embarrassed.”

The actor then expressed concern at possibly having disappointed fans: “Everyone must have waited a long time for a new drama, and looked forward [to ‘Uncontrollably Fond’] all the more for the wait, but I’m worried that I wasn’t able to meet expectations. On one hand I’m sorry about not being able to show a bright and cheerful character.”

Looking back on the role, Kim Woo Bin said, “I learned a lot of different emotions through the character Shin Joon Young, and it was a valuable time during which I was able to reflect on a lot of things.”

He said, “I wanted to gift everyone with those precious emotions and thoughts that I had, and with warmth. I dare to call it a ‘present,’ but I hope that when you are watching the final episode, you will have felt at least a little of what I intended.”

Closing, Kim Woo Bin thanked fans for always loving him despite his shortcomings, and encouraged everyone not to be oppressed by the heavy heat.

OMG my dear Kim Woo Bin, you've done great baby! I am sure your fans know about how hard you work for Uncontrollably Fond and how awesome you are for potraying Shin Joon Young who shows so many emotions. You will never believe me, but I would tell you my secret that I cried when I watch episode 8 of Uncontrollably Fond. Do you want to know in which scene? It's on the scene when you confessed to Jik that you really like Eul and now you are barely living. I cried hard on that scene, my baby! You are amazing to bring such emotions and I didn't expect you to be that good in making my heart feels so heavy and burdensome. 

I am not you fan at first Kim Woo Bin, you are just somebody that I pay attention to since A Gentleman's Dignity because somehow I am sure that your name one day will get big! Uncontrollably Fond is one of your greatest work and I am sure that everyone will think like me. Because you tend to have a bad boy image and while you work for Uncontrollably Fond, you extend your charisma and try on different character which I think you did a good job since you make me cry for the melodrama! Shin Joon Young does have a lot of emotional scene and I am sure that the present from your will always be cherished in my mind, memory and heart <3

Twisted Pleasure of Korean Drama

I feel sometimes life is an effort. 

Life is one thing that we must strive for the better. If you want something, you might have to work to get it. There must be a price that you have to pay, if you want to gain something in return. 

For the past few months, there has no reservation for makeup and I start to think whether my decision is a correct one. But there is no right or wrong asnwer as long as you know that's what you really want. I felt that I am a failure. Then, my friend told me that in life, you sometimes needs effort to make it work. I admit that I tend to close myself from the society for the past 2 months. I usually will put picture on instagram so that people would notice it. But, who is going to know about you when you did nothing at all to make people know your existence? It's also true that few months before are considered as low season for people to have party and weddings. But after thinking that there is no certain conditions to say that someone is successful now, then I would probably will say that I will still keep going no matter how many times I fall. And so, for the next few weeks, I am going to have some clients to meet. Hwaitting! ~

Another thing, it's the wedding season already and I already got some of the wedding invitations. My mom starts to think who she is going to invite on my wedding party and it sounds funny when her own daugther still has not have anyone to marry. 

For the better part of my adult dating life, I’ve always wanted what I don’t have. I've always wanted my story would be like the kind of korean drama, with the exact opposite of the 'too good to be true' one. I've always pictured those images that a relationship should be like that. Although I know deep inside me that there is no perfect example of relationship, nor the perfect male lead. Everyone has flaws and no one is ever perfect. Even Lee Young, the Crown Prince played by Park Bo Gum also has a temper in his personality, even though it's a cute side of him. But in real life, you would probably think it's a scary thing when your boyfriend often throws a fit.

Either I derive some twisted pleasure from constantly wacthing korean drama, or timing has failed me more times than I can count. I first chalked it up to being a complete sucker for the chase. And maybe it’s not so much what I don’t have, but what I can’t have. But, I still want the person who makes me work for it, makes me question my feelings and makes me want him more. When I thought about it, there has been no one who would make me feel in that certain way. 

In most of my teenage life, Taiwanese and Korean drama have always been my biggest inspirations for dating life. Many times I feel happy because of the story like  it's my story and also with the male lead. I think they called it as a effect of too much drama, a typical K-drama fan syndrome. Although it is only a drama, but they made my heart flutters a bit specially with their acting and emotions. There are various genres of drama and I tend to choose a drama based on the background story and next is the casting. Having years of experience in choosing K-drama to watch, I tend to like mature and realistic story line like Secret Garden and A Gentleman's Dignity which tell us the reality of life. Meanwhile, learning that no one is ever perfect. Kim Joo Won of Secret Garden is actually a jerk who has warm personality inside him and Kim Do Jin of Gentleman's Dignity is also someone with a flaw, a past mistake. But I fell for them both, knowing that a person cannot be perfect.

K-drama indeed is a learning source for me over the past years, and I don't think I would leave them even though I know it's a bad habit, having too much fantasy with unrealistic story, but in any case, it's a learning playground for me. I end up also knowing that I like a conservative type of storyline, such as historical drama which has a cultural value I also believe in. Although there are certain things in historical drama which I don't really like it, specially with the belief that the King is God, which turns out make him to abuse his power. It's no different whether it's during Qing or Joseon dynasty and somehow I feel relieved to be born in this era which allow me to have freedom. Besides, as a woman, I tend to like a romantic drama which shows true feelings instead of being overly romantic. Such a pure innocent love story will always attract me in every way.

Heol, is it too hard to find someon like the one in K-drama? Or should I just fly to South Korea and stay there because most of Korean male actor always make my heart fluttered? I know there will be no one like in K-drama. I am not looking for a super handsome guy also, it's just someone who has sweet smile. Is it too hard to find someone who has a suave and gentleman personality? Well, maybe one day. But, when tied down by the constraints of a serious relationship, I’m a complete commitment-phobe. I’m always wondering how it feels and what it means to have found 'the one'. But even still, I choose to walk away rather than thinking about it much. 

It's true that in the end, I end up avoiding it as much as I could. Although at times, there might be times I wondered why things doesn't work the way I want. I’m sometimes heartbroken and always intrigued by the unknown. That doesn’t mean, however, that the rotating first dates, multiple text pals and dating games aren’t exhausting. Life sure is an effort.

Hopefully, with times, I am able to let go and make the best out of it. 

For someone who will treasure me the most later on, it's either you accept me just the way I am, that includes my interest in K-drama, or we might not fated to be together.